frustrated, angry, sad.....
I am so done. I hate that I can't stop binging. I know that it is a choice that I am making, but I keep making the same choice. I binge, I purge, I get angry with myself and anyone around me until I can do it again. This is destroying me. I am not the person I want to be, but I don't know how to change it. I can eat healthy all day, but one little screw up and it is a full out binge and hours of purging after. I am just so done with it all. I want to go to bed for a few weeks and not worry about anything. I hate how that sounds. "poor me, can't stop eating" I really hate how that sounds. today is going to be a binge free day. I am going to have cucumber for breakfast, tomatoes, dill, and zucchini for lunch, and broccoli and cauliflower for dinner. I will not binge. I will pull myself out of this hole I have dug for myself..............I hope :(
what a lovely sentiment, joan. and so true. nobody understands like a fellow sufferer, and nothing is as important as understanding! midge. xo
It's an addiction and is the definition of insanity.
I wish I had the answer to tell everyone how to get into recovery but like others, I surrounded myself with people in recovery and shared. Took all the suggestions that they gave me and finally put them into actions when the urges came. Some things worked and others didn't, but I think I was ready to do what ever it took in order to recover and continue. I feel like I am still dieting but without going to extremes either way.
Stay connected and share........hugs, Joan