Im frozen w fear & indecision, im not accomplishing anything, going nowhere, stagnant, idk what to do :(
I knew I was having trouble and needed to get in gear but I just cant Make myself do it :(. My bff just left her rotten husband and 5 days later shes starting school to b a medical assistant. Granted shes living w her parents so has help, support and encouragement but nonetheless. Ive had 6 months to do something. Ive been told im just making up excuses, like I never have gas money to Go over to the college and sign up. Theres a job 30 miles away I might b able to get BUT (lol) jts pt and when i do the math i will get abt 180 $ a month take home. Doesnt make sense to me but ppl tell me I should do it. I havent gotten the divorce papers filled out bc im intimidated, scared and dont want to deal w an appt w the court facilitator and all that. Writing abt it im starting to see that I just dont want to deal with it all, im overwhelmed and scared and depressed and thats a huge part of why i cant get my shit together. Some of it is i just dont know What to do. How do i get it in gear ? How do I push the depression and fear aside , how do i make up my damn mind abt What to do w myself and get it done, i know im under extreme stress but siting around isnt helping ive got to get on w my life, get divorced, get a job, got to some type of school, etc etc etc . But im frozen :(
Ell. There only one pill you need and that is to get that sick sob out of your life and learning coping skills to keep his sick actions from affecting you. O see you doing better all the time. I'm sure you font think so, but from outside looking on you are making progress. Hang in there. I'm here for ya
elle get some legal advise even if you are not ready yet to file for divorce..maybe that will reduce your stress a little..at least you will know what you are entitled to...in terms of depression I can only tell you what works for me..I say this because I have no right to assume I know whats best for you but we do care about you..I try to have some activity during week that gets me out of house for a few hours..start with something small maybe...others have posted about medication its worth at least considering..but remember you have shown strength just by coming here
I am pretty frozen to day too Elle. I hate it when I find myself exhibiting this behavior. Oh well... We have talked a lot. Maybe it is just time now. We know we have love and understanding from those who are or have walked in our shoes.
Some days I just go to back to basics. Time with my God first. Second myself, which I break down into Body(feed it, clean it, dress it), Environment, and then I approach my other responsibilities in a prioritized way as best I can. It is difficult at times.
You know i love ya girl!!!