Im 16 and used to suffer from "anorexia". I was forced to recover after being sent to the counsellor by my "friends". From then on, i find myself unable to have a healthy relationship with food.. It was either all or nothing. Id i had food, i would binge on it even if i became bloated. If i didnt't i would fast for 24h and binge right after. I really want to recover from this. I dont like the cycle of restricting and binging.. Its draining and it is creating a hole in my pocket. I dont have that kind of money to buy so much food and polish them off in a day. I always wanted to talk about this to someone else but i never really had friends. I find it hard to communicate with people and i know im just socially awkward and weird. No one knows of my disorder.. They still think im "anorexic" even though i have already reached a healthy weight.. Im so lost and confused.. Food has become my drug and addiction.. I really want to get over this and i really hope that we can support each other through our problems.
How old are you where you from it sounds like ur problem is the same as mine.
Courtney, if you had just recently recovered from Anorexia, I guess it is normal that you are now compensating with a lot of food. Do you know in what consists a healthy diet? Seeking for a nutricionist, or just reading articles at sites like sparkpeople.com might help you.
That's the objective part of the thing. For the mental part, I think that all the people who say they are weird, actually are not - if you make such an assessment, you are aware of how to behave. Just let yourself be who you are, and do not be afraid of others judgements. If they reject you, that just means they were not meant for you in the first place. Also finding new friends, who do not know about your previous health condition, might help you - this way you can gain your confidence back and make your current friends see you are healthy and on top form.
I hope this helps, binge eating is not something one wants to get into (also having money issues because of that, by the way).
Im 16 years old from Singapore
However i probably recovered from anorexia by binging on food.. It was because of binging that i gained weight so fast till im "normal" now so i always feel obliged to binge. I've already binged for half a year so im not sure if this is part of recovery or another problem :(
I actually don't dare to go near a nutritionist or counsellor because being dragged to the counsellor without knowledge of it had given me a very traumatic experience.. I think i know what healthy eating is. I follow the diets of bodybuilders and eat clean most of the time.. The problem comes that my binge foods are "healthy foods" like oats and canned chickpeas, especially the latter. Many websites always say to eat beans to curb binges but i dont think that works as it makes me binge on it even more :(
You're right that i should be myself but i've lost the essence of myself and im sort of lost. I don't really know who i am anymore. It feels like my life is based on lies :o ive probably lied so much in my life that i actually believe in those lies itself..Im starting a new school next year so i hope it works well :D
Thanks a lot :D