Trying to start again
I have recently started dating someone and I feel like its going to be a repeat of an abusive one I was in. I have had a couple relationships since but each time a man raises his voice to wrinkles his brow I feel like I'm going to get hit. And the worst part about it is I JUST WAIT FOR IT! I don't know why but I instantly go back to the subservient woman I was 5 years ago and I'm sick of being scared all the time. A year ago I was raped, for the second time. Someone took my virginity from me then a friend took my dignity. I feel like I'm an object for men to do with what they please. I don't want anymore broken bones bruises or violations but when a situation presents itself I freeze and just can't do anything. Like I deserve it. I just want to know, am I alone?
Hi Broaken! If your co-worker will let you stay there, then stay put for the time being. My suggestion to you, is get a restraining order against him. I know you're scared..Take pics of yourself so you can show the police. That is the best thing you can do to protect yourself. I know he has you so fearful, but you need to take your life back! I know its easier said than done, but you have taken enough from him. Showing him that you're not going to take crap from him anymore and being happy is the best revenge. Your life will be so much better without him, but you have to tell yourself this, and it will sink in after time. I wish you the best of luck & God Bless You! If you need to talk, im here for you. You gained a new friend today, who understands all too well with what you're going through. Keep in touch with me!
thankyou shell you dont know good that makes me feel just knowing that iam not alone and that someone out there knows how it feels to be scard and hurt as iam..i have tears in my eyes right now..once again thank u.for your kind words.
You are so welcome! That's what im here for...its a shame that our self worth has been taken away from someone who gets their rocks off doing this to women. That's why we have to stand up for ourselves & stop taking this anymore. Remember this, and this is something that someone said to me...don't shed a tear for him because I guarantee you that he's not crying over you! Those tears that fall from your eyes are wasted tears...And, I can tell you from personal experience that os so true! Once I stopped crying, my life started to come together little by little. You're a beautiful woman, its time to think about you & don't stop living your life, he's living his! But show him that there is life without him in it! I just want to see you happy and embracing life instead of fearing it..You are the reason why I decided to support people on this site, and it makes me feel good to help people in need! Don't be a stranger please keep me updated about your situation?