I still live with my abusers
They still abuse me, and I have no where to go. I dont plan on going anywhere really...its not always bad.
but on the days im home a lot...it gets worse and worse, and my tears arent seen...i have to hide them. I cant say a word...
I just want to curl up in a ball and pretend im a leaf or something.
I cant leave, Im kind of stuck here. I have one person I trust, but when its time to hang up the phone..or not be in her office, I have to realize I have to go back to that house. I know im not being held here with a gun to my head, but if I leave, I worry what will happen.
anyway, writing this helped....thank you for the support <3
you are welcome. i understand, not completely, but i don't judge you for staying. sometimes you just can't leave. i am here for you when you need me.
Oh honey, my heart aches for you. If you are able, tell someone you can trust. If you can't leave on your own, at least get someone to help you until you can get away. The problem with abusers, they won't stop until the lights are turned on and they have to face what they are doing. Usually it's only by them knowing that their secret is not a secret anymore (other people know). I equate them to cockroaches, they run around in the dark and hide when the lights are turned on. You are the light, you are the light. If you don't expose this, they will hurt someone else too. Please let me know how you are doing on finding someone to help you.