Worst day ever...

This is the worst day I've ever had. I was feeling really good this morning, then I started going down hill into deep deep depression and mood swings. Stupid bipolar disorder. I'm so annoyed that because of me having hypothyroidism I am having the hardest time losing my weight. I'm 220 pounds and it is driving me crazy. I was going to go to the doctor today to ask for help, but then my brain was like "No you don't nee to go!" Gah! Its getting on my nerves!!! Its like the more I work out the fatter I get! I work out for 1 or 2 hours at a time everyday! I am dieting also and nothing is working! I just want to give up, but when I do give up I start hating myself. Also because of my bipolar meds and all that I am on, I can't use a weight loss supplement. I don't want to use a supplement anyway, I know some people have to use them to lose weight, but for me I feel like I would be cheating myself and it would lower my self esteem lower than it already is. All I want to do is lose my stupid gut, but no... I had to end up with hypothyroidism to make it harder on me... Its like all I am getting out of my weightlifting and cardio is I am getting so much stronger physically...