Many Reasons For Weight Gain but Only One Real Helpful Cure

I Am almost 18 years old and I have never known what it is like to be thin. I would like to tell my story please comment if you have anything to say.

When I say im over weight I mean extreme weight issues that I have had from when I was a young child of about three or four.When I was around five years old I started going to diet doctors. By first grade I was on a all protien diet. When all the other kids go to eat school lunches I brought my own. My packed lunch contained a protien bar, pickles, carrots, and boiled eggs. I was often made fun of and asked why I brought that for a lunch. I had to explain to all my classmates that I was on a diet. I tried to avoid anything that could bring up my wieght. I tried to avoid eating too much around people, and gym I tired my hardest to do everything without being embressed. Gym was one of the most embressing things I had to go through when I was younger. I was always the last to get finshed and the first to get out of a game. I would stand trying to catch my breath while other just stood and stared at me. I was also made fun of becuase I never weared jeans or shorts, always dresses. I liked to wear dresses becuase if I wore anything else they could cut into my sides and like red marks from where they wore.I was also very paranoid that people were making fun of me. I was constianly checking to make sure I looked ok or that people were not looking at me.
When I was younger at home things were not as bad. I was still on a diet. There was a little more veriety in the food but I still was made to eat some what gross foods. I am a meat eater, I love to eat meat and have from when I was very little. At home I was made to eat tofu. In my personal opinon tofu is very unappealing. I was always outside but it never seemed to be enough exersise. I was pushed to do as much phsyical activity as possible.
After my dad died the weigh started to pile on.My wieght started to get really out of control so my whole faimly hopped on board. We all went to weight watches, my grandparents, mom and me. We took walks together and ate meals together. I started swim team which I became very succesful at. As soon as things started going good, they took a turn for the worst. My grandfather became very ill and eventually died. The pounds packed on like you couldnt believe. At the age of fourteen I was just ten pounds shy of three hundrad pounds.
We decided to give me weight loss surgry. The weight loss surgry helped alot but after while I started noticeing things werent right. I had a inch of a bump sticking out of my stumcah. I through up everything I ate. I went through two surgrys trying to fix the lap band that broke twice.
I would throw up everything I ate for along time. I would take water pills and also appatie depressents. I would go to exterme diet phases. I would eat only fourteen hundrad caloires a day to eating tubs of cookie dough and a pizza at time. I would also go through workout and exersise phases. I would go along time without workingout. When I would work out I would workout for almost four hours at a time. I was going through alot of paranoia from being made fun of, also stress from hating myself and the way I looked. I was also putting alot of stress on my body as well. After all the weight loss and weight gains my skin can only be repaired by surgry
About six months ago we figered out what is wrong with me and why my weight cannot be controlled. I was diagnosed with cronic lyme disease. It is from being bit by a tick when I was 3. I have a very weak immune system, low on many vitmans and minerals. My hormones a very out of wack but I am happy to say it didn't mess up my lady hormones. It causes extrem tiredness sore joints and musscles. It caused my thyorid to stop working prororly. It will take almost another half a year to back to normal.
I have found the only real cure to being over weight and help weightloss is loving your self and being happy with your self. When you do that you can take the time to love yourself and care for your self proprly and it is also the only way to find true love. you cant love others when you think you are unloveable. The cure is taking the time to know your self love your self then takings proper care of your self
If you took the time to read all of this thank you and please leave your comments.