life or not

Hi sara pilarski, Have you see a doctor and/ counselor for help? If not then I suggest for you to do so and today preferably. If you are feeling suicidal then you may call the suicide hotline http://suicidehotlines.com/ . Also please talk to someone face to face about what is going on with you. I am a survivor of a father who committed suicide. It is so very hard on the loved ones left behind. Please get help asap. Feel free to continue to share with us. We are here for you. ((((hugs))))

Sara, please seek help. You may feel unloved, but you aren't. I had 3 brothers and no sisters, I was the only girl in the family. My dad died in an automobile accident when I was 16, my oldest brother was shot and killed by his ex stepson when he was only 34, my baby brother either commited suicide or was murdered when he was 30, my middle brother was manic depressive and took his own life when he was 47. I lost my Mom 10 years ago and I had a breakdown about a year later, I sought help and that is all that kept me from doing something stupid. I miss my family, but trust me, life is worth living!!!! People do care so please seek help even if it is from a stranger. If you didn't want to live, you wouldn't have come to this website. How old are you now? I am 59 and I was diagnosed with non hodgkins lymphoma last September and I still want to live. Have you shared with your adopted family how you feel about them? How are you screwed up? Is this something that you need to seek professional help for? I hope that everything works out for you and that you seek help. May God Bless You!!!!!

Hi Sara, I am glad to hear from you again. You are not alone with when it rains it pours happening alot. I have that also at times. But I have God in my life and he helps me through somehow, some way. I do have family and a few friends to talk to. Some friends I have made on here. I hope you feel you can talk with us. We are all here for you. ((((hugs))))