Lynette's Journal

you know this has taken a toll on me i have been soo stressed out cause of this Anyerizim i don't remember things half the time. i get confused alot. i have alot just thrown in my lap it's just been way to overwhelming iam not suppose to get my blood pressure up cause it could come uncoiled and the next time he'll have to go in my Brain.... and before all this balled out i was going o school thru a Goverment run program they started to put me thru school and i was having MRI'S MRA'S WITH AND WITHOUT CONTRAST first they told me they could'nt find anything wrong... i wasn't settleing for that Answer i said than you have to look harder like towrds the veins or tendans but something is seriously wrong. i was getting angry cause it was painful sickening feeling all the time.
i was always walking around feeling for shit eyes close it hurt soo bad to open them i cried but anyways back to school i was going for a CNA and took my first state test i failed. i was waiting to take my next test... when they found her laying Dormant.

i need to quit for myself and my health i have totally beat the crap out of my body i'm paying for it dearly now. someetimes i don't know if i'll pull thru this.. my life is fineally good after years of growing up in a hell house very disfuctional. i found a wonderful man that has stood by me for 13 years even though all the Hell i put him through hell.

so this i need to do to make me a happier person to be around.. i am a willing partisapant in this i need some talking to to give me a boost lets me know somebody is willing to work with me.

Hi Lynette, Welcome to SupportGroups.com. Quitting smoking they say is one of the hardest to do. I have quit for over 2 years a couple of times in my life. Like you, I wish to do so again. I hate smoking and how it makes me feel. There are different ways you can do this. Cold turkey, patch, gum etc. I usually do the cold turkey method. There is another site I have gone to that helps quitnet.com . We also have a Smoking forum here http://www.supportgroups.com/support-groups/smoking-support-groups on the site for those who wish to quit. I have posted some things in it. Check it out when you get a chance. Keep us posted on how you are doing. We are here for you. ((((hugs))))