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It is really hard to trust people

It is really hard for me to trust people. I have two people that I truly trust ( my brother, and my boyfriend). Outside these two people, I have a hard time letting ppl in. I can trace it back to when my mom left me at 3. It was only for a year, but I could not understand in my young mind why she left. When she came back I did not even recognize her. People had to tell me "this is your mom." Sad

Or maybe its the neighbor kid that I trusted but who ended up molesting me. Maybe then I subconsciously decided never to be so trusting with anyone, because I would get hurt.

But life is lonely without ppl to call on. I wish I had a chick friend to call to go out for lunch, or shopping, or a movie. I so long for a friendship with a woman who I can trust with my feelings or just share my life's moments with.

Sometimes I watch tv or pass by two friends who are just hanging out, and I so wish I could do that! God please help me to learn how to open my heart and allow people in so that I may cultivate friendships. I wanna be surrounded by ppl who can support me through this journey of healing that I have begun!!

Love Molly

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By Serenity26 on Mon, 07-05-10, 04:03

Sorry about your pain..i too so not trust anyone anymore..I keep people at a distant and that what causes me to be lonely...I too was molested when I was younger and when I finally told my mom, she did not believe me and a shock look on her face, cause she thought I was trying to get the attention, cause my sis was molested by my dad(not me, I was molested by her welfare counselor)..but I learned to live with this and that makes me wonder sometimes if my last relationship where he was not an abusive man, but I believed had a drinking problem not going so well and I felt more like his mom, nagging and being argumentative with him...I am totally confused..cause I feel I am doomed when it comes to relationships...i ask myself will I ever find anyone decent?...or maybe I'm just meant to be by myself...and just date and have friendship ones...still confused and hurt and want it to go away...

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By bluidkiti on Mon, 07-05-10, 05:42

Hi Molly8713, I can relate to how you feel. I have a few people in my life whom I truly trust. But the one most of all that I trust without a doubt and know will not forsake me is God. Knowing that God will always be here for me gives me comfort. People can let you down. My sponsor also reminded me that as human beings we are not on this earth forever.

I have been hurt deeply by others whom I gave my trust to. I am very cautious of others today. Too many people are nice on the surface but how are they really underneath? What are they really thinking?

Anywhos, keep sharing with us here. You are not alone. We are here for you. ((((hugs))))

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By Wanting to get better on Sat, 11-20-10, 14:44

I am also guarded for many reasons. I hurts me so bad to have to look into situations so deeply all the time. As soon as I try to let people in I close myself off. I understand what you feel.I wish there was something I could say to take it all away. At least here we can be ourselves.

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