May 17, 2012 | Subscribe

Lack of intimacy..

So here is the deal. I have been with my boyfriend for about 2 years now. He used to live in an apartment that was about 10 minutes away from me. I was head over heels in love with him and our sex life was incredible. Sometimes 5-6 times a week, couple times a day! Besides the sex, our relationship was incredible as well. We would work out together after work, eat dinner and just enjoy each others company. He was my bestfried, well he still IS my bestfriend, and we would help eachother out in every way possible.

He lives with his roomate, a friend of his, and that was okay becuase he worked nights. So on a Friday night we had the whole place to ourselves to drink and have a party of two. Well it turns out, his roomate decieded to buy a house about 45 minutes from me. Which is all fine and dandy, but my boyfriend moves there with him. Why? becuase apparently he does not show enough credit to live on his own. And i just started my new job so I am living at home saving up my money. Anyways, this house is a diaster. Absolute diaster! They are living in a house that is literally being reconstructed due to the poor quality of it. There is no rooms acutally. There is no kitchen, no bathroom (besides a toliet) No t.v.. Dust is everywhere. u know that white thick dust when a house is being redone. And why are they living there? Because it was a "steal". HA. his roomate was fully aware there was $40,000 worth of repairs on top of the price of the house. And everytime they tear down a wall, electrial work is a diaster, in fact they acutally found a door behind their kitchen wall. Anyways, they could not live in their old apartment while this house goes through months of repairs becuase his roomate claims he could not afford the rent on top of all the damages in his new house. Which is ironic, you cannot afford a couple more months of rent, but you can dish out money to a house that should of been teared down? Ah. Ok i am rambling.

But so this house, it is not liveable. They are probably breathing in crap every day. And it is a decent distance from where I am living, and after a long day of work and working out at night, I am totally wiped. I don't want to drive an hour just to sneeze up dust and turn around in 30 minutes to get some sleep.

So because of this, I have alot of resentment towards my boyfriend. I am mad he cannot just get an apartment on his own and support himself. he is old enough where he should be able to. And due to my anger, our sex life as dropped dramatically. Where it used to be a few times a week, it is now about once a month.Thats even pushing it. And honestly, I am not even into it. I miss the desire to want to WANT him. This whole move screwed everything up. I miss being able to see him everyday. You can tell he is depressed living there, and he makes no attempt to show he is into me.

Its gotten to the point where I think about other people. I think about past hook ups and how good they used to feel. The last time my boyfriend and I had sex, it was totally PLANNED. like UGH. planned sex is the worst! We even got a hotel for the occasion, because his roomate is always home trying to fix the house. A hotel just to have sex, with a boyfriend I have been with for 2 years. I felt like i was doing it for him. I miss our sex life. I miss him making me feel good. I miss him in general. He was doing so well in his old apartment and its like he took two steps backward.

Am i being too tough on him for moving there? He has been there for about 5 months and I have not seen any progress in him trying to get out (he hates it there) or trying to finish his degree in school so he can get a better job and move.

Does it sound like I am falling out of love with him?
Sometimes I feel that way. I just miss the OLD him.

By bluidkiti on Sun, 06-06-10, 05:47

Hi Candii2233, How are you doing today? Have you talked to your boyfriend about all that you shared here? If nit, then I suggest you talk to him. Pick a time that is good for you both to have a calm discussion. If you are meant to be together, time will tell. Keep sharing with us. We are here for you. ((((hugs))))

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By April on Fri, 06-25-10, 19:59

Sounds like your just frustrated with accomplishments not happening fast enough, sometimes our expectations of what other should or shouldnt be doing can get in our way, so like Bluidkiti said talk to him & maybe you can help him recall the goals the two of you have discussed before in life, it might turn on a light bulb somewhere down the road for him & you to, that way you can sort out your feeling about him as well, keep talking & take care of you.

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