FIBROMYALGIA/ CHRONIC PAIN PATIENT AND ADVOCATE

MY ORDEAL STARTED IN 2005, I WAS IN A FOUR CAR AUTO ACCIDENT WHERE I WAS HIT FROM BEHIND AT A HIGH RATE OF SPEED WHILE I WAS SITTING AT A RED LIGHT. I DID'NT EVEN SEE IT COMING, I WAS ON MY WAY HOME FROM WORK, I WORKED FOR THE STATE'S ATTORNEY'S OFFICE IN MY HOME TOWN FOR 20 YRS, I HAD JUST MOVED INTO MY NEW HOME IN A NEIGHBORING TOWN ABOUT 30 MINUTES AWAY FROM MY JOB, I WAS STILL GETTING USED TO HAVING TO FIGHT THRU TRAFFIC ON THE HIGHWAY AND LEARN MY WAY HOME DIFFERENT ROUTES, I WAS TWO BLOCKS AWAY FROM MY HOUSE! I WAS A HAPPY GO LUCKY NEWLYWED (MARRIED 8 MONTHS EARLIER TO THE LOVE OF MY LIFE). TO MAKE A LONG STORY SHORT, I HAVE NEVER BEEN THE SAME. I CAN'T SAY THAT I HAVE BEEN BLESSED WITH BEING IN THE BEST MEDICAL CARE BY THE DOCTORS IN MY TOWN, I HAD TO CHANGE MY PRIMARY DOCTOR BECAUSE HE BECAME ILL AND MOVED HIS PRACTICE TO A TOWN THAT WAS TOO FAR FROM MY NEW HOME, HE HAD BEEN MY DOCTOR FOR ABOUT 15 YEARS, SO HE KNEW ME WELL AND WE GOT ALONG GREAT. NOW I LIVED IN A NEW TOWN AND DIDN'T HAVE A CLUE WHO TO TRUST WITH MY CARE, IT HAS BEEN A NIGHTMARE! I DO MY BEST TO LIVE ACCORDING TO GOD'S WORD AND HE IS HEAD OF MY LIFE! I THANK GOD FOR JESUS, BECAUSE WITHOUT HIM AS HEAD OF MY LIFE, I WOULD HAVE LOST MY MIND, I DON'T HAVE TO TELL YOU GUYS ABOUT THE PAIN I SUFFER THRU, BUT I DIDN'T EXPECT TO BE SO MISUNDERSTOOD. I SUFFER FROM EVERY SYMPTOMS POSSIBLE THAT IS REALATED TO PAIN, I HAVE HAD FALLS DOWNSTAIRS BECAUSE OF DIZZINESS, WEAKNESS OF LIMBS, YOU NAME IT, I GOT IT! I NO LONGER ALLOW DEPRESSION OR ANXIETY TO HAVE POWER OVER ME BECAUSE THAT IS LIKE A SLAP I THE FACE TO GOD. I KNOW THESE FEELINGS AND EMOTIONS ARE AS REAL AS THE PAIN I FEEL, BUT I WILL ALWAYS TRUST GODS PROMISES TO ME! I HONESTLY KNOW THAT IF IT WERE NOT FOR CHRIST IN MY LIFE, I WOULD HAVE GIVEN UP, THAT IS HOW BAD THIS DISEASE IS, I KNOW YOU GUYS CAN RELATE TO THIS. I ALSO HAD TO DEAL WITH THE DEATH OF MY MOM AND HER MOM JUST BEFORE I GOT MARRIED. THERE IS SO MUCH THAT HAPPENED TO ME, BUT I WOULD HAVE TO WRITE A BOOK ABOUT IT. I DON'T QUESTION ADVERSITY WHEN IT COMES MY WAY BECAUSE I HAVE KNOW THAT WHATEVER I GO THRU, GOD WILL ALWAYS, ALWAYS BRING ME OUT OF IT A STRONGER, WISER PERSON. SO, IF I COULD GIVE A WORD OF ENCOURAGMENT, IT WOULD BE TO TRUST THE LORD WITH YOUR PROBLEMS, HE IS OUR LOVING AND MERCIFUL FATHER, HE SAID IN HIS WORD (THE BIBLE), " I MAKE SURE THE ANIMALS HAVE FOOD, SHELTER AND MORE, SO HOW MUCH MORE WOULD I DO FOR YOU WHO ARE MY BELOVED CHILDREN" AND HE PROVED THAT WHEN HE GAVE HIS ONLY SON TO DIE ON THE CROSS AT CALVARY! SO WHEN I GO THRU THE PAIN AND DIFFICULTIES IN LIFE, I JUST REFLECT ON THE UNSELFISH WAY HE HAD LONG SUFFERING ON THE CROSS! TO GOD BE THE GLORY! AMEN!