It's not fast enought!

I'm 14, shy and quiet. I'm currently 5'2 weighing 99 pounds. I'm asked on certain occasions how I get so skinny, but I look at my legs and laugh. Why do feeling so gross!? I've never been confident in myself. I've always felt like I was just some joke, however, I'm told I'm beautiful; I've gotten most nominated most beautful in my class more than once, but why can't I see this 'beauty'?

For as long as I can remember, my biggest fear was eating infront of people. I absolutely HATED it. During school, I'd eat nothing all day and do a rough Athletic workout with my school leages everyday; roughly eating only one meal a day, every so often a couple snacks. It seemed as though I was burning SO many calories.

I got out for summer break a month and a half ago, and started "slacking". No work outs, eating about Two meals a day and, of course, my sugary snacks. This went on for the first half of the month. Then I started getting 'inspired'. I would look on Anna sites, looking at the tiny girls, wishing my thighs could get a little smaller. I love that gap I have in between my thighs when I stand up, how my legs don't hit when I walk.. but when I sit down, and I lose my much loved "gap" I feel like such a cow...

I just want this weight gone.. I hate it. I need it gone! I'm discusting!