I love summer

I saw this and it was the most powerful thing I have read so far. I've never had someone describe it as a choice. I wish you the best of luck and I hope you beat this.

=]

Wonderwall,
I love your name, it indicates vastness... I want to wander and be apart of wonder.

Today I start anew, I begin again, smarter, humbler, and more serious about this recovery that I had taken for granted. I wanted to be "recovered" to wear that shirt Jennifer Schaefer wears that says "Recovered." Who doesn't? Still I'm here putting one letter in front of the other and admitting my intention for today is to eat good food according to the guidelines I know work for me, to digest that food and to feel my feelings.
I have always had a choice.
Satnam

I think that is a wonderful goal. Just take it day by day. Don't rush it. It'll work for you =]

Just saw this Patsy. It sounds like this time of year can be a bit triggering for you. I can understand that. I support you in embracing what you have learned with the eating guidelines. Reaching out and using the tools you have will help get the momentum going into a more stable place with less interruptions form ED. Wishing you a happy and peaceful summer!

Surrender,
Thank you for your support. I am struggling, been in relapse (no longer a slip) for a month now. It sucks big....
I kinda hid this post, not feeling too inspiring for all the soldier sisters out there. Through the cloud of ED I'm ready to float back to earth. I know it will hurt when I land, but this is where life is.
I'm going to commit again to a binge and purge free day. It's my right, right?
My light is easier to feel because you shared yours with me.
Much love,
Patsy

It IS your right sister. I hear ya, I had gone about a month purge free and it crept up on me as well. We can continue to support one another, (Share our light as you say) through these waves. I heard a quote from a stranger the other day and she had me thinking. She simply said: "I have absolutely no shame". I truly strive to be in a place where I can say and feel that...until then let’s at least have some compassion for ourselves:) Sat Nam.

Surrender,
Absolutely no shame! Of course not it's pointless, shame that is. Yet.....
Thanks again for responding. I hope I am not tainting any progress with my current reality. I know you understand, as I do you.
Now let's me here tomorrow with tales of making it through. I'm right here in the place I usually put the behaviors. Evening without plans, finally feeling good after yesterdays energy sapping episodes. Why does it even occur to me to sap my own light? That of course was a rhetorical question.
Honestly I don't want to commit to not purging. I'll go ahead and commit and add that I'm willing to let willingness in where it isn't.
Peace to you...
Patsy