Control FREAK

So two years ago I decided that I was sick and tired of feeling fat and wanted to lose 15 pounds... it ended up that I lost 35 pounds instead, going from 145 to 110. I exercised every day and ate super healthy which was difficult for a college lifestyle. All of a sudden last summer I realized that I was sooo tired of counting calories and purged after eating too much at a cookout. The problem started out innocently and only happened maybe once a month until around Christmas this past year. I still run on the treadmill everyday and eat healthy until I go on a binge which has been happening WAY too much! I weigh myself everyday and right now Im 115 after going on vacation and have binged everyday except today for the past 3 days. I used to think I binged because of the stresses of graduating from college and job searching etc and now I realize it is purely because of my OBSESSION with food and weight. I constantly compare myself to everyone else and think ppl who are 20 pounds heavier look the same as me. I hate when other ppl diet around me cuz it makes me feel disgusting. I am triggered by cereal, desserts, waffles, pancakes you name it! I told my boyfriend of 4 years, my mom and sister but they don't understand how hard this is. I love reading other peoples stories because it makes me feel like Im not psycho and not alone! Sometimes I wish I could go back to a year ago and not started this crazy habit! I have two cousins who have dealt with anorexia and bulimia for 15 and 10 years and I do NOT want this to take over my life! I am making an apt. with a therapist because this SUCKS!