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okay.i try to hide this as best as i possibly can to everyone i know and love.because i know for a fact that they would be pissed off at me.i hate my body.i am 16, 5'5" and i weigh 116.people tell me all the time that im perfect or im skinny and i dont need to lose weight but i do.and i want to.in the begining it was bulimia,i started doing it during the summer because i didnt think i was skinny enough.i hated going to swimming parties because i thought i was fat.but now i just..dont eat.and even thought it sucks and it doesnt feel great, i know im just that much closer to losing weight and being skinnier.i cant talk to anyone about it because they scream at me and tell me to stop.ill eat but no very often.ill only eat a little bit if ppl are watching me but other than that i dont really eat.and i hate doing it but i feel like theres nothing else i can do.i hold my breathe when i pass by food that i just wana tear into.but i cant because thats just gona ruin me.and idk what to do about it.because i wana stop but i just cant.