May 16, 2012 | Subscribe

Losing control

One week ago I had the best weekend I could have ever imagined with the girl I love. We cooked and cleaned together, we played games, talked about our future, baby names and pet names and such. It was the highlight of my life. I suppose I was celebrating such a wonderful day just a bit too hard. I'm not sure how much vodka I drank, mixed with juice, but it was a lot. Later that night I blacked out only to find out the next day that I attacked the girl I love and tried to follow her home.

I've never been more ashamed, never felt more cowardly, never wanted to die quite like I did. But she continues to talk to me on the condition that I seek help. I'm doing this for myself, so that I can be who she needs, and who my family, needs me to be. I'm going to my first AA class tonight. Not court ordered. I just know it has to be done.

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By enabler6 on Sat, 06-19-10, 04:06

Good for you that you are going to get help, just try not to disappoint, lie and use this girl. Be sincere and honest and get help, for yourself and you will be amazed at what a wonderful world awaits you without alcohol.

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By bluidkiti on Sat, 06-19-10, 05:50

Hi Ryun, Welcome to SupportGroups.com . I am glad to hear you are going to AA. That is a step in the right direction. Make sure to listen for the likenesses not the differences. Get phone numbers so as to have someone to call when you need to. Make sure to come back here and let us know how the meeting goes for you. Keep taking it one day at a time. Keep sharing. We are here for you. Just for today don't drink. ((((hugs))))

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By domestic on Sat, 06-19-10, 06:16

U are a star, TAKING that first step on the road to recovery is a big positive step to your future.

well done and as bluidkiti says listen for the same things that u do even if they use a slightly different phrase, glad to have u onboard the support group

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loving thoughts and positive vibes

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