It's almost 4:30 in the morning and I can't sleep. I've
It's almost 4:30 in the morning and I can't sleep. I've managed to hold it together enough to not have to be admitted to a mental hospital. Going back to work in a just a few hours. I tried going to a friends house last night, to get moving again but I could only stay a few minutes, had an anxiety attack. I'm not sure how I'll be able to make through the day at work. I'm trying to not let this overwhelm me but I'm not having a lot of luck. I can't tell anyone, can't talk about it, can't focus, can't concentrate, can't think of anything else. I keep telling myself things will get better, I'll get over this, it's not the end of the world. But that doesn't seem to help, at all. My counselor tells me he thinks I should try to handle this without meds, in his professional opinion. I've tried several anti-anxiety and anti-depression meds in the past and had horrible side effects so I think he is probably right. I figure if I can just make it a few more days, or maybe a few more weeks I'll feel better, get used to it. I'm not sure how I can function though. I feel so lost, disconnected from the world.
Sep 20, 2013
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Sep 20, 2013
For the most part it was a better day today. But this afternoon I started running a fever, swollen glands, headache and just generally feel lousy. If I can find a silver lining in this it's that it might be taking my mind of the situation I've got myself into. Since this is the initial outbreak I'm hoping this will be the worst one, God only knows though. I now think that celibacy is underrated. I believe I will make me a very large bowl of mint chocolate chip ice cream, wrap up in some blankets on the couch and forget about this day. Good night all, hang in there with me, we'll get through this.
Sep 20, 2013
Yea I was getting a cold too cause the weather was crazy an I keep the AC so cold lol.... I thought it was the herpes causing the cold! Everything that happens I think it's the herpes.... I'm just getting inform work an bout to relax you have a goodnight as well :-)